i think i finally realize wats wrong with me; i found that word that basicly describes how you sometimes treat me... you always told me that i should tell you wats wrong, yet i prefer going public before even telling you... sigh and i'm sorri about all this for i blame myself... i always told you to care for yourself before others but apparently you may have taken that in the wrong perspective... you tell me that i treat you like a princess yet i felt that may have been my mistake... and I repent for all that… the anger used to build me physically, the pain substituted from the wound on my fist, and now this log to clear up any leftovers that I may had felt… its ok though, i’m realli ok now…  plz if you read this, don't get me wrong though,  i realli do love you and i don't ever wanna lose you for that is why i can never tell you this myself, but sometimes I don’t know if you notice… you can sometimes be really inconsiderate…

hmmm.... ppl these days  keep asking about  my past relationships like how could youhave been with her, shes soo __________ or she dresses like a _____ and alll this other stuff....  But then ppl change... they were not like that wen i was with them... they been swt, nice, etc.... now few r like a pain in the ass to me at times...  But is it them to blame??? i have changed as well i bet...  and it may not be for the best, who knows...  well everyone will except for me...  O, too the ppl that said that stuff, i agree... if she was like that, i probably would not have gotten with her... as well as bobby, i'm glad u finally understand i don't get with ppl for looks... if i did, i think it would onli last a week...